Tatyana’s letter to Oneghin (Translation from A.S.Pushkin’s novel Evgeny Oneghin)
Tatyana's letter to Oneghin
Tatyanas letter to Oneghin (Translation from A.S.Pushkins novel Evgeny Oneghin)
I forced myself to write to you, I could not stand that burning wish A caged bird now in your hands You can just set me free or punish. But you, descending to my poor state, You cant be nonchalant Im sure nor blind You cant be cruel to my fate And keeping just a bit of, no, Not love but probably compassion You wont fade away and leave me Not sharing even in the least My scorching and uninvited passion. I wanted keep it in myself At the beginning, please, believe me Youd never get that poor letter, Youd never know of my shame Or expectations of my soul If having just a bit of hope I would be sure to simply hear Your voice or maybe see Your noble face in candle light And thinking, thinking all the time Of a new meeting just in crowd Of people too indifferent to feelings... But there are rumors youre a hermit I dont believe that can be true... Although its boring in the country-side Far from the capital and court... But we... What can I say about us? Theres nothing very outstanding or great Or even fascinating Though we are glad to, no, Id say, are happy Just to meet you here. Why did you visit us? In depth of God-forgotten place Id have never known you Nor learnt the sorrow and pain Of the unblurred conscience... Who knows maybe in the future Ill find someone who would be A friend and husband and good father And me... I could be a faithful wife and loving mother... Some other person... I will never give my aching heart To anyone except you... And I dont know who you are And I dont care. The devil maybe or the angel The only thing for me is clear You are a reflection of my dreams And have been sent to me by providence Or God, who knows. And Id been loving your charming image Before I even saw it... Long ago, no, it was not a dream nor reverie. And when you filed in through that door Me, burning down, petrified I knew exactly that was him! The only thought was crying And pounding inside. And I remembered again your voice As you just talked to me So many times in silence While I was helping poor people And calming down the violence In their souls or praying God Intending by the prayer To set some peace in mine. And at this very moment Was not it you, my dear angel, That flickered in dazzling darkness And kissed me silently? Was not it you, that lovingly Some words of hope whispered to me? Please, solve the doubts of a soul Newborn and trapped in devils web. Or maybe thats even not worth thinking of? And life itself is storing some other lot for me... But, no, right now Im giving all myself to you Without any rest. And heavy tears are rolling down my cheeks As though asking for a defence And words of consolation. You just imagine Im all alone here And no one else can mere understand... My mind is pressed by burden of... How they call it? Common sense? Yes, thats it... sense... Im left and dying... And looking forward to see you Here one more time. Please, come and set some peace in mind, Or break the dream So clear and fragile. With the only word of fear or reproach! Im finishing! Im frightened to reread, The shame and fear my body penetrated. But I believe you wont spoil the life And reputation of a girl So innocent and young as me In this world where everything So unjustly was created.